My truth

It's been several weeks since I last posted a new entry.

I told myself it was a lack of inspiration. Today, like so many times when everything falls into place with clarity and loving wisdom, I could see that it wasn't a lack of inspiration, but that I was actually still looking for a topic to write about, that was "acceptable." Something that somehow didn't show so much of my beliefs, something that wasn't so spiritual that it would push people away, that they would reject me. In the end, I was looking to write about a topic that didn't show too much of myself.

I realized that I was still afraid to write about what I really want to write, because a part of me embraces the truth of my soul, but another part of me is afraid of being judged, afraid of "losing people," afraid of being looked at as weird, afraid of being seen.

Today I finally understood that it is me and my truth that I have to embrace, that this is the real leap of faith in myself that sets me free. That writing from my soul will push away those who need to go, and lovingly bring closer those who are going to be part of my path. With infinite love I accept those who leave, those who stay, and those who come.

From now on I will tell my story genuinely as it has been. Finally taking out to the light the parts that I sometimes do not mention for fear of not being believed, of being called crazy, of being called weird. Today I can finally say that these terms do not affect me anymore.

The bravest act of faith is to truly accept who one is, but not only behind the scenes, but before the world. A world in which prejudice and cancellation are common currency, but a world in which acts of love, compassion, kindness, are constantly present, and illuminate the darkest corners.

Today I know my worth, and although I continue to reinforce the ground where I build, letting go of limiting beliefs and clinging to the truth that my soul whispers, I choose myself.

The entries I may write from now on may be revealing, difficult to believe, difficult to assimilate, but they are essentially part of my story. This is the story that has made me who I am, and I embrace each and every moment.

If I told you about freedom it could be overwhelming. Even for me who was looking for it, as I found it I felt more lost, I felt it was too big for me. Of course, I was still clinging to ideas of who I was, but I'm not.

Sometimes we want freedom, but it makes us feel so unlimited that it overwhelms us.

Sometimes knowing that we are within four walls, no matter how suffocating or inadequate they may be for us, makes us feel better than feel "exposed." Sometimes, walking the path that someone else has laid out for us is easier than encouraging us to find our own path. But the cost is always very high, sometimes we lose our shine, sometimes we stay in sadness, sometimes our body gets sick, our life becomes toxic, our habits too.

When I talk about freedom, I talk about living a life built by and for me, for what I feel in my soul that I am. I have lived lives based on what others expected of me, on what I thought I should be. I have lived lives from fear, from limitation, from lack of love. That love that deep down we all seek, because more deep down, we all already know that we deserve.

Unconditional love is precisely a love without conditions. A love that holds us not because we are perfect, impeccable, but because it is our true essence.

We come to this life to remember that love. We come to this life to live the shortage to remember, and choose, the abundance that we deserve. We come sometimes to feel the darkness to remind us of the Light that lives within us.

But letting go of shortage and embracing abundance is a choice.

Trusting that "the bad things" that happen to us are always an opportunity for great growth is also a choice.

When we dare to listen to the discomfort, which tells us to let go and look for something more, that despite being afraid we should take the step, it is like retuning our own radio frequency, which will guide us along the best path for us. A path where suffering is much less, where pain makes sense as a great teacher, not as a punishment, and so, our path finally becomes luminous, and we live lighter, and we go through the challenges knowing that we are supported, that we are not alone, that we have a strength within us that is as unlimited as our existence.

And so finally our vision of things changes, and we can see all around us, the acts of love, the kindness, the company, we allow ourselves to see that inside us is EVERYTHING.

We come to remember ourselves again, to embrace ourselves in all that we are, with all our colors, to accept ourselves; because only in that honest acceptance, we can let go of what pulls us down, we can finally see what we are.

The idea of ​​this blog it's always been to tell my story, and everything I have learned along the way. It is the testimony that deep pain can be transformed into a life full of meaning, love, smiles and compassion. It is testimony that suffering is a choice, simply because we do not know that it is a choice, and that we can choose something else.

My story it's been full of deep pain, of incomprehension, of labels like "depression" and "eating disorders", and even of wanting to let go of this life because the pain was too much. Of feeling that I did not fit in, of not understanding that I saw things that others did not see, that I felt the emotions of others, other people's pain, other people's loneliness.

But it is a story full of wisdom, of searching, of love, of Light and joy. Of keep going despite not seeing the path, of letting go, of trusting, of accepting my gifts. Of consciously welcoming those spiritual guides and guardian angels that we have, both on this earthly plane and on the others, who are always at our side, guiding us, supporting us.

It is a story of hope, of expansion. In the end, it is a love story, and it continues to be written every day.

You will read about everyday and not so everyday experiences, about channeled messages, about experiences with disembodied souls, about the twists and turns of life that sometimes seem like a coincidence, but that such thing really does not exist, because everything in our life responds to a bigger plan.

I invite you to take from my words whatever resonates with you and that you believe can be useful to you, and let go of the rest.

In the end, the best guide we can follow is the one that is within us, but we must remember how to listen, how to build that path back to Home, to that Home that we are within ourselves.

So now, officially, I welcome you to: The Journey of My Soul.